Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life – – – Psalm 23:6
Theres a little sign attached to a low red brick wall that I pass each morning as I walk the few blocks from my car to work. Im almost at work when I pass it, breathing heavy from fast walking, a thousand things in my head yet this small sign all washed out and faded that shouldn’t even be noticeable any more always gets my attention. It marks the entrance to a car park and it simply says IN .
You IN ?
My answers the same as I make that last dash to get to work each day.
Im IN I feel it under my breath, in rhythm with my feet I’m IN, Im IN. Im all In
Both hands, both feet, whole heart.
I need that prod, I need to make that decision – – – because when life feels like its all a bit too darn much as it has done lately I have a tendency to look for the out.
Not physically but mentally
When I’m stretched out thinner than what I think I can handle, when I feel in over my head – – – I’ll start to tune it all out. Dial everything down, create a good arms length, hide from the kids, stop answering the phone and just generally ignore a whole lot of things.
But theres a few people that need me In
The people at the end of the phone calls I take each day need me In – not distracted, not dismissive or disinterested – all IN
And My kids need me In – not distant, not put upon, not crabby, not slamming food down in front of them and not keeping a safe distance so the noise doesn’t deafen me. All IN because when the ground isn’t level and their heads are full of questions I know what they need from me are open arms and an easy smile and ears that are listening. They need me finding joy on the hard days and laughing at the crazy and trusting God against the odds because thats how they’ll learn to do it.
That little sign reminds me to be all In the moment with the people He’s given me, to give the best I’ve got right then and there whether that moment brings warm breezes and sunshine or whether it brings a pile of clothes about as high as me in my back room, a great load of dishes in the sink and the kids fighting over the TV.
Change can throw us off real bad, so can a lack of control – I can resent what the season requires, I can try and tune it all out or I can receive it all as from the hand of God. A different or a hard or a crazy busy totally in over my head season doesn’t mean its not a good season with good things to give.
I liked this thought
“life is better when we let ourselves feel lucky” Shannan Martin
So right now in this moment here with you – “I’m in”
Lv to you all today xx