Welcome to my Five Minute Friday,
This weeks prompt word: Ten.
Oh these prompt words they take it out of me
Five Minute Friday – Sunday here now. I wrote this yesterday after I noticed the day’s date on my computer
It’s ten years today since we moved into our house – our first home – we moved in full of dreams and big plans and to quote myself “some we have seen through, some we are still working on and some have sat back and laughed at us” Ten years – gone in a heartbeat. Ethan was just a baby and Olivia not even with us yet. She arrived just in time for our second Christmas and I thought all of my Christmases had come at once. She would stare at me with her deep dark eyes as if asking me “who are you” “why am I here” and I’d try to explain it to her. Now almost nine I’m sure somedays she knows more of the answers than me.
Grown now from babies into children that are still a wonder to me and I wonder as we all do constantly how did it happen – how did those years slip by so quick – where did they go. But even while they were still little, with those round gorgeous cheeks and dribbly mouths, pushing each other around in the dolly stroller, both squeezing into the baby bath together, both screaming in unison, high and ear piercing if I was ever going anywhere without them – even then I knew “these are the days”. The days to grab and cherish and take notice of because they’ll be gone in an instant as they all are. And they were. They don’t slow down or hang around so that we have a decent chance to marvel and wonder. So I only hope I kissed them enough and cuddled those little squishy bodies enough and read bed time stories enough, I hope those little hearts knew how much they were loved.
I know for sure I messed it up a lot, lost my temper far too much, was busy too much. I wonder as well about the odd sense of guilt that hit’s me sometimes and always bring a sting to my eyes – like I somehow should have slowed the day’s down, and made them stretch out farther than I did. Like I could?? and did I do enough, did I make it count enough, do I remember enough. The intention to appreciate all I have have is a good and Godly one but guilt isn’t – it’s draining, it steals from today and I’ll never remember enough.
I know that in ten years time I’ll look back at now – with my girl 8 and my boy not yet 12 and think – oh my you had it all then – I’ll marvel at how small they look in photos and how cute they are and maybe I’ll ask myself all the same questions – – –
Right now though – I’ve got today. Today – I can take notice of and be thankful for. Today – I can love them. Today – I can look on and handle fondly for all it contains – the goodness and the grumpiness. Today I can enjoy and marvel over my children and bicker with them as well for sure at some stage. Today I can take the pressure off trying to do it all and making it all count – it counts just by being. It’s a gift and I can just do the best I can in this moment I have.
Thanks so much for reading today. Hoping my 5 minutes that stretched into 15 made sense.
If you have a moment you can read a little more of our ten years here.
12 thoughts on “Ten Years Today”
precious post, bless you.
Thank you Denise
I know how you feel. I sometimes loose my anger too much and am not thankful for the day God has given me. I feel guilty too, but I know if I just ask He forgive and everything is new again. I can try again to capture thankfulness and special memories.
Thanks so much Mary – really appreciate your thoughts and words and thanks for stopping by here.
Love this. Here from FMF.
Thank you !!
Thanking God for “today”… and for this reminder to do just that
Thanks so much Tondra
What a sweet post poured straight from your heart. And what lovely photos too. And yes, you will look back in 10 years and ask all the same questions. Only it will be different, because they will be flying from the nest and you don’t even want me to go there, because that’s where I am and it’s not all that fun at first! 😉 I think every mom who loves being a mom second guesses herself, but it’s ok because God gives grace and He made you and only you to be those kid’s mama. And so, they need you and only you, faults, strengths, and all! 🙂
Blessings on you today, my friend, and enjoy tucking in your sweet ones tonight!
Thank you Ruthie – you have a way of bringing me to tears every time. Thanks so much for your lovely comment and for coming by to visit. So appreciate it.
God’s mercies are new every morning, and His grace is sufficient to cover our mistakes. Praise Him.
Thank you so much for your encouraging comment. Really appreciate it.